When reading the definition of virus, I was given two options:
vi'rus i) t
he causative agent of an infectious disease or
ii) something that poisons the mind or soul.
I'll give you one guess at which one most resonated with me ...
Lets go back in time... 24 days ago today, something deep down inside of me shifted. I may not have known it then but looking back on that rainy sunday, it is as clear as polished glass. I decided to live my life for
me. By making this quiet declaration to myself I was also choosing to live my best possible life. Each and every moment of our lives we are faced with choices. Sometimes they are obvious, sometimes less obvious. There are times we are conflicted on a deep moral level, and times we are just lazy or tempted or guilty. Sometimes our
integrity is challenged most. So what are you going to do? It seems so simple to just do what you want, but alas, not always the case. Herein lies what my little 'ah-ha' moment that dreary April 1st was revealing to me: If I
choose to live according to my dharma, my best self, my truth, my integrity then those people and opportunities that I attract will be with me for all the right reasons and I will never have to question myself. Everything will be in its right place, even when things seem hard, or viruses attack, or people let you down... everything will be exactly how it is meant to be. This way, instead of trying to make things perfect, you take care of you and the people that stick around add to abundance of your life. Are you excited yet!?!?!?! Oh my Divine... right, what an amazing thing! It's like jumping out of a plane... well, actually not at all but the adrenaline rush you get from choosing to live your best life is soul liberation at its finest! Me and my wild spirit know no limits...
"Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
With your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
(*side note: this poem has been passed between two friends time and again, it lies in my hands now until May 21st when I will return it to her...let our daily reminder be your m.o. too, we can share)
Fast forward to April 9th, still flying high, infused with this new sense of self-awareness and boundless love, I start to feel it... that little tickle in the back of the throat, the swollen right gland, the achy bones and then, there was no denying it... chills, sweats, fever
(you know the way the story goes). The virus was taking hold of my body. Strep throat... antibiotics... no better... weekend of sleep... nothing...
fast forwar: April 17th, the day before my birthday, most intense middle of the night headache of my life... sinus infection... my. body. is. shutting. down. BUT MY SPIRIT IS STRONG. F*&K you virus! I had the best bday ever! I was so full of love that day, it was near impossible to let a searing sinus headache dull the overwhelming flood of gratitude and love I was feeling from friends, family and students, every room in my house was full of the scent of fresh flowers.
Jump to Friday, Joint Bday House Party?!?!?! WHAT!
again surrounded by the people I love the MOST in the world
(minus one sick person, two pregnant hotties and of course the MTL crew whom were intensely missed ). Even on antibiotics this virus was not gonna win! The next morning, I was en route to my favourite place in the world..... the lake. Time for the healing power of mother nature, and that's when I realized something else, as I was overwhelmed by love and the feeling that I must have done something right to have so much of it in my life, the definition of the
virus made sense... this whole time it
was and continues to try, relentlessly to poison my mind and my soul... after it takes your body it works its way into your spirit, or at least it tries. Well, here's how I feel about my little friend. Dear nasty virus, thank you for challenging the strength of my soul. My body may have given in but not even for a moment did my spirit give up. I win! So that's where I've been. Instead of posting new music, instead of finding great pictures to inspire you, I've been fighting super villains and Ive been kicking some serious butt! The best part of my sick time has been getting the chance to slow down (a little). Instead of running the Hardy Trail, we hiked it, at a decent pace :) and I noticed things about that deserted little lake I'd never noticed before. Instead of running in the rain storm, we worked out inside on our mats. I sat by bon fire and watched angels dance in the flames, I felt the chill of the April water, I napped in the middle of the day, and I laughed... a lot.
The past 24 days have been amazing. Thank you. And as Chant would remind me in those moments where you just feel so full...
Hello Life!
I'll leave you with a present i received tonight from a very sweet friend... straight from Coachella into my little living room and now into yours.
Sweet Dreams Lovelies...
Kx
